Who wants to live forever?

I must admit that Freddie is one of my favorite freaks - dead or alive- of all times. I was too little to understand what AIDS is when he left, but now that I think, even his farewell tells us a lot. The real Queen of our lives, Freddie stood up for everything he believed was true and worth living. He was really himself despite all the fakeness around and his songs always reflected his unpredictable and passionate soul.

At last, if a time machine was invented and I could whereever I want for once, here is where I would go:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MKQZpjEu3O4&feature=related

I love you freak.

Sleep in peace.

 

Autumn.. don't leave me, yet.

I am not ready for the icy cold weather. And since I don't believe in any of the available gods, my options to pray for better weather are out. There is always the agnostic gateaway but I guess the pride weights heavier..

But really, who would you wish things from if you do not have a God on call or even a mom right by you? Therefore I just have to let autumn go. 

I was already grumpy this morning, while waiting for the 30-min late shuttle when it was 25 degrees (that is in fahrenheit : a pseud note my European readers) and literally feeling like the ultimate snowwoman of all times. Hungry, sleepy, freezing and desperately hoping that the experiment from last night has worked, at the same time remembering good old noblesse oblige times of mine. The times that I felt like a winner, not a still-trying-to-get-out-of-school  frozen being. But there I was...

When I made it to lab, another ego-fluctuating day of mine has officially started. Experiment (check), coffee (check), run away before weirdo coffee-man sees me (check), waste time with silly emails and unnecessary networking sites (check). There, it was already noon! Where did the half of my day go? (Visit Grad Hacker if you don't want to end up like me) What was I saying.. ego?.. right. The only thing that crashes into pieces each day but somehow manages to fix itself up the day after: Ego. Or mine, in particular. You wonder who is the girl that tries to explain her mentor why she forgot to add enzyme into an enzymatic reaction? Yeah, now you know me better (by the way the right answer is that her head is nothing but a smashed pumpkin today).

Ugh, back to Autumn.. Glendon Mellow had this post, which drew my attention due to the picture of choice instead of its concept. While I have no problem stating this fact shamelessly, I think I calmed down after seeing the photo on his post, anyways. That was it! I just missed autumn already! I just wanted to walk on dry leaves and focus on romance rather than endless postdoc applications.. I don't want to freeze, not that I care dying old in a dark corner of a lab in nowhere one day. All I wanted was colorful leaves.. Now what is left is higher gas bills.

(and just like that, she has lost it..)

Random things meme

I just figured that Stephanie Z has tagged me in her randomness meme. It has been a while since I have filled out such a form (forever maybe?) which makes it fun. Here we go:

Things I was doing 10 years ago:

Choosing my major in high school (gosh! what a start!). Deciding if I should study theatrical art or science. Playing the guitar in high school band. Dying my hair to blue. Leaving my coffee mug unwashed for days. Dreaming as much as I was today. Trusting people more than now.

Things on my to do list today: 

Learn how to cook more like my mother. Being more patient and saving my choopy thoughts to myself more often. Getting my PhD degree in a couple months. Publish not perish. Working on the rationale/emotion ratio. To act. Reading more poems, going back to Guatemala and choosing my wedding dress. 

Snacks I love:

Jello, black olives, carrots, plain yogurt with bread and grapes.

Things I would do if I were a millionaire:

I never want to be a millionaire, even the idea freaks me out, so I skip this.

Places I've lived:

Apartment, flat, dormitory, farm, house, gym and rented-rooms variously located in Istanbul, New York and Atlanta.

Jobs I've had:

Selling salami in a supermarket stand, giving away food tickets in BP, translating English to Turkish in many occasions, reading books to disabled people, teaching tango, teaching chemistry in a local high school in Atl, teaching assistant to a biochemistry course and tutoring many more. 

I won't tag anyone else just yet and I will edit the list if something comes up to my mind. But for now, there, you know me a little more ;)

Later.

If you believe, they put a woman on the moon

I found this comic by  Dinasour Comics  hilarious. While I think we still need time to break into the big boys club,  recent prosperings makes me believe that everything is possible and can be achieved with enough dedication. Therefore, yes we can!

Wedding crashers

Life is keeping me very busy and there is so much to raise voice to around me these days. However when I ran an into this by Reuters, I ended up speechless..

- can you see what you are doing is a mistake, before actually doing it?

bummer.

Why do societies fail?

I have written about evolution of cultures before. Below is a nice talk by Jared Diamond about the failure of societies. If you haven't read his book "Guns, Germs and Steel" here goes a very good summary by him. Stay tuned for more on cultural evolution and selection of societies.